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Friday, March 28, 2008
Now...
You know how i feel ma?? I feel like crying... Why must all this things happen?? When the incident happen i wish u would at least say something to make me feel better. But why is it that the wrong person to come to comfort me?? Do you know when i see you i realli feel so sad and heart broken.... I am just freaking bai chi... REALLI A BAI CHI!!!!!!! why must i love you????? why do u GUYS make us feel this way???!!!! Why????? Its realli easy for u guys to take it easy... But for us gals it ins't easy at all... You know how it feels ma??? U know ma you know ma!!!!!!!??????????? I can't take it anymore le i just can't... I am going to break down if this still continues!!!!.....
her sweet memory was written @ 9:58 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
So angry la
Today woke up 6.30am again.,.. The usual happen again... The guys were like so irritating la.. so can't stand them la... Today pa on mc he is sick... Then isaac so irritating ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!! To bad I got such a irritating brothers... But without them I will be very bored... But it's ok la.. Hahas.... Hmmmm I am very tired now... Next week school starts le... Hahaha i hope everything goes well... hahahas..
Written on 24 march 2008 (8.53pm) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 8:34 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Easter Day...
Today is Easter Day... I wish everyone Happy easter day!... today was suppose to go to the 9am service but i didn't... I told aunty malee that i wanted to go for the 11 am service but in the end i didn't go but for the 3pm service... It ended at 5.15pm like tt lo...Then saw the guys... hahahas... All of them sia... I was glad to see them lo... hahahas... Then tml have to wake up quite early to see my brother playing table tennis lo. very early la like i think 6.45 am lo... Then take bus there... hmmm tml then i will write again...
Written on 23 march 2008 (10pm) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 9:11 PM
Saturday, March 22, 2008
During dinner
I didn't eat anything for dinner today... I just had ginseng chicken soup... matthew came to our house for dinner lo... Then i didn't say anything to him la... It's like i realli don't know whether i should go to chalet at all... Because school is starting and i don't feel like i have done much and i am very sacred really. I really pray that i will get through and more...
Written on 23 march 2008 (12.27am) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 11:50 PM
What i realise...
I realise that i don't look back and look in a new direction... Today I was suppose to follow matthew's cell to go for bowling... But i did'ny go because I don't feel comfortable... Malee keep on saying matthew matthew... So irritating la... Some more say him handsome.... Weets.... He is like I don't know how to describe..
My bro he was in a rush so I did'nt follow him.. Wanted to but in the end didn't.. Cause wasn't in the mood to go out lorr... That bro talk so loud how to sleep... Last night slept at 3am la... Was like blogging and stuff... I thought alot yesterday.. Now i think i am heading a new direction... No using hanging on to the past..
Written on 22 march 2008 (4.45pm) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 4:26 PM
now i am still awake
Now i am still awake.. I juzt finish editing melvin's project..Got spelling mistake but can't blame him ma... But he was very sweet in his project... But i am very afraid someone will be angry if the teacher is gng to show to the whole class... Dun know la... Now back so pain aand butt pain... Sit too long I guess... haha... okie peace out...
Written on 22 march 2008 (1.43am) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 1:40 AM
What i found out...
My cousin was getting her braces so she ask the dental and say it's quite tough and need lots of studying.. i am so dead la.. I hope that i will not get stress up.... Chey in the end.. It's diff la.. She thought i am gng to be a dentist but i am not... hahahas... I will be working in a lab... So it's like ok i guess... I am afraid i cant cope and stuff.. Seriously i hope i will meet good friends and teachers... Hope none of them will dislike me and stuff.. hahahasss... HOPE SO...
Written on 22 march 2008 (12.41am) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 12:16 AM
Friday, March 21, 2008
What happen in the night...
My mother wants to go out go out for dinner but i didnt... Because i didnt want to... Should i change my life... Should i go for my bro cell... It's like i dun feel very comfortable when being with them... It's like what la... I mind has been spinning because i keep on thinking... Is the things around me going to affect me?? I am realli thinking alot whn two my friends told mi??? I really need someone to be there for me and willing to listen and not like say that i have been thinking too much... Willing to love me always.. Not like other guys who can say "i care for you" but in the end all that is a lie... Do you know how hurtful when you love someone?? I got hurt lots of times so i know... It's very very painful... But no choice have to endure.. It's not time to think about this but career first ba... I have to work hard to finish this course and earn more money...I want to get like lots of things for my parents they work so so hard for us.. Espically daddy he always got back pain also dun say...Walk long hours just to get customers and legs so pain.. At first dun know, then i heard from mummy de.. (feel like crying le)... Then mummy she work till late hours... She work till her body pain.. I see her like that i feel so useless... I really dun know how to help both of my parents at all... (realli gonna cry soon but control)... I am lucky to have such great parents who give us what we want, they dun even get what they want to get.... Always have I wish all my thoughts will be put aside.. And look ahead ba... Relationship aside and other unhappy thoughts aside ba... Ya jesse mccartney new album coming out in singapore on 20 may.. I am like so getting the disc lo...Chor hiang and chee wanna gibb mi big soft toy...$50+ de i dun wany cuz they will waste money lo... So now i have to study hard and earn money to repay my parents.... Will write soon...
Written on 21 march 2008 (11.oopm) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 10:11 PM
About the chalet....
I don't know whether i should go.. It's like i don't feel like asking my parents at all... Alot of people ask me to go but i don't realli know i should go or not... It's like there are realli some reasons that is why i don't want to go.. Ask me stay over-night i don't even think they will let me go to the chalet so you think i should go ma??? I realli don't want to get scolded le... ARH!!!!!!! Am i insane or what??
Written on 21 march 2008 (4.50pm) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 4:43 PM
What happen on good friday..
Today work up at like 8.20am ba... Reached church around 8.50am ba there isn't alot of people.. We went there to reserve seats Mrs carol and Mr ranon.. Then service started at 9.10am like that... Wa all they sing the songs all don't know.. Sister Tracy Tan sang the song it was like so-so ba... But i stil prefer her brother to sing thesong he compose... After that we went for so called lunch then went to tampines mall to get mr ranon's dictionary.. In the end we reached there at 11.30am at popular there wasn't anybody there till like 1pm or later lorr. When we getting things from popular, Mr mak when to get sport shoes... I feel like everyone is changing now... I don't feel like last time... HOW???
Written on 21 march 2008 (4.42pm)beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 4:27 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
In the night...
After going to Sabrina house... I went home... rush to eat my dinner then went off to hougang mall.... I went there with my dad and brother to see his dictionary for his O levels... So sian i didn't get to watch the nine pm show, but i recorded the show... All the sudden when waiting for mummy when fetching daddy.. I thought of lots of things.. Think about alot of people and i don't know why... All I know there is a bright further infront of me i have to look forward. I have to work hard for what i want and for the people beside me.. So i have to put the past behind me and do well... Will write again soon...
Written on 20 march 2008 (10.57pm) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 10:42 PM
What i done today..
Today woke up very early not usually the time i would wake up.. I woke up at 6.20 am just to get ready to go to marine parade to ngee ann primary school to support my brother... As for my brother he followed the school bus... First they played with ngee ann primary school but they lost. Second was to poi ching primary and they won all the matces... After that aunty sherlyn brought us back to st hilda primary...Upon coming back i sms Sabrina to see whether she wants to go out because she told me that she didn't have schoo... So i was a bit bored so i sms her and told her i wanted to go to her house... So i bought bubble tea for her and tibits to share.. I so miss the times in secondary school... Haha i went to her house to fry prata... The first piece was sucessful.. The second piece WAS NOT... It's because there isn't anymore gas.. So when her mother ask her to call for gas she didn't because she didn't know, of cause i would know either.... in the end i had the prata at 5.05pm... i helped her mom to fry nuggets and cut veggies.. It was like a pleasure to help her because i have not help her in a very long time... My so called dough called by sabrina was indeed quite good... hahahas...That is the end of my story... Will write again soon..
Written on 20 march 2008 (5.08pm) beatrice-broken-hearted
her sweet memory was written @ 4:52 PM
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