BEATRICE MAK ENCI
STUDYING AS A TRAINEE IN SOMEWHERE YOU DON'T KNOW
ENJOYING SINGLE-HOOD




sweet nana-sabrina
princessahli-cute niece
Eeling jie
Azimah
cuttie jinnie
pretty jessie
Sodiq
Randy kor
Ain
Jasmine
Melissa
Fatin
Cheryl jie
rebecca mei
edwin
fatin
fatin2
valrie
jiahui
cute cute rina

today after the talk went to vivo... went to get mel stuff and she bought smth and its from someone else its like so sweet can. haha... then ya.. had lots of fun=) thanks mel...

her sweet memory was written @ 6:27 PM

i realli hearts u alot. i hope this love aint a lie. i hope no one is hiding anything. i am just so so tired inside. i dun know wat to do i need strength. i hearts u...
(cant take anymore hurts)

her sweet memory was written @ 11:04 PM

do u realli care for me? my body is at work but my soul is somewhere else, waiting for a long time. i realli dun know whats is going around me. i feel so hurt deep inside. idk..

her sweet memory was written @ 10:40 PM

freaking pissed.. why can't u just do ur own things.. why are u so kpo. u think that i am so free? u think i can just do the things i want to do and not go to study/ work? why can't all of u understand what i am gng through????

her sweet memory was written @ 11:10 PM

this is for someone special in mind right now.
i hope u will do ur best in everything.
ily.

her sweet memory was written @ 11:30 PM

hmmm this are the presents i got.. the precious thughts de is from mel.. the wallet from kai xin jie. the head phone is from classmates. the nedcklaced from lina mama. the small bear bear is from edward and the forever friends is from gen.. anyway thanks for everythings everybodies... love ya lots..=)

her sweet memory was written @ 10:52 PM

today the class celebrated me bday together with me.. haha... they were like veri nice.. they bought me a headphones from nike... like veri ex la... appreciated it lots man.. the pics are like with ck.. i think i look supper retarded lo.. lina mama gave me necklace and it looks nice.. gen give bear.. haha then after work... went to kaixin and el singing competition... in the end they got 3rd... congrats men... ya thats all for today thanks everybodies.. loves ya=)

her sweet memory was written @ 10:13 PM

today went back to work... so many things to do... all my other pals alreadi like doing so well la.. and i am stuck lo. so many things just happen like at work.. haha daddy and mummy like treat beijing like baby like that so cute. she so guai like daddy carry her like a baby.. so cute lo.. hehe..i also carry her like tt.. so cute. hee.. yupps... then tml then got test i cant study le lo..hmmm count down 3 more days... hehe...

her sweet memory was written @ 9:00 PM

this morning when for baptism class. then after that reached there at 12 or earlier then after that have 3rd service.. today is generations bday.. then helped to do cleaning. then after that met sab at kfc to study. die tml got test!!! arh!!!!

her sweet memory was written @ 11:00 PM

the clipp with the whale is mine.. my brother give me de. haha. then beijing went to cut her fur.. now she looks s cute... cant believe that my mom touching the dog.. was surprised.. then having test on monday confirm die de. haix.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:11 PM

today went to sab house then left her house at 7pm... then waited for bus like so late the nokia shop close at 8pm lo.. reached there at 7.55pm then still can.. the lady take so long lo. yupp..
then went to popular to get things for mama lina and sabariah.. then walk arnd. then sab tell mi go to art box... then after that she ask me choose a box thought was like for her diary then in the end she give me as bday presebt then i was super shocked. i was like huh here huh there. then mel i hope ur okies. thats all for today. just want to say i miss u so so much eddy..

her sweet memory was written @ 12:22 AM

take cares when i dun contact u. all de best to ya.

her sweet memory was written @ 12:17 AM

haha today i put this on my dp... then kenneth cousin say this picture cuter then another picture... i was like shock.. was speechless... haha.. hmmm today studied quite a bit... tml i must try me best le.. hehe... fighting!!!

her sweet memory was written @ 10:51 PM

shinee song amigo... taemin look so grown up he still looks very cute(: like almost all had a haircut.. haha..

her sweet memory was written @ 2:02 PM

thank you.. for everything. all the best to u..(:

her sweet memory was written @ 8:12 PM

her sweet memory was written @ 5:23 PM

this picture is when i was like younger the past. so many things happen back then also... so many heart breaks then... yupps...

her sweet memory was written @ 12:06 PM

looking out of the window... thinking if ya okies.. i so so sorry. i really dun know what i was doing at all. i am so sorry. i know there is some things u dun tell me.. i realli dun want to hurt u realli i am so sorry.

her sweet memory was written @ 11:27 PM

her sweet memory was written @ 11:26 PM

i am sorry. for wad i said.. i am feeling very horrible now.Please be okies. cuz i dun know how to contact u.. i dun know what to do. i dun know i realli dun know biyanhe.

her sweet memory was written @ 9:17 PM

there are so many things to say to you. i realli got lots to say to u. maybe not now. count down 9 more days to a birthday which is not realli biggy to me.. cheers haha... 6days before i go back to back... so i must jia you.. FIGHTING!!!!

her sweet memory was written @ 5:34 PM

this song feels like it gots a lot of meaning. although my chinese ain't that gd but i kinda know what's it's saying. anyway i realli have to study hard. because test coming le.. i dun know why i can't study that much also. hope evrything goes well.(: miss ya guys... love you guys also.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:15 PM

(actions apeaks louder than words)
the days is nearing but i dun even feel excited or happy. i dun know to spent that also. maybe i will go to the beach to take a nice stroll. actually its nothing special anyway. its no biggy. that day i want to spent to alones. it would be greats(:

her sweet memory was written @ 8:51 PM

i love what i am doing, i love the people beside me.. I love me besties like melissa,kaixin,lina mama,sabariah,sabrina and more.the most i love my family memebers and beijing also. i am so going to miss her when she is given away.. ): and lastly i hearts him. love you guys :)

her sweet memory was written @ 8:54 PM

peace out and tongues out men(:
now is a saturday... alot of pple must be gng out. confirm me besties are now woth their boyfriends... now my tummy feels very painful. don't know why..

her sweet memory was written @ 8:25 PM

this picture is me and my bestie mel mel....the other onw is kaixin and me hope u like the edites.. hope its nice(:

her sweet memory was written @ 3:49 PM

i miss my work place everybody.=( i miss mel mel the most... i miss lina mama, sabariah and somemore pple... miss them so so much. miss lots lots of pple.=D hahahaha... david archuleta roxs... haha.... shinee also roxs... miss evrybodies.. hahaha

her sweet memory was written @ 8:43 PM

wa i found put that the youngest taemin in shinee is only 15 years old... its like wow.... its like so young lo... the oldest is 19... haha so one of them should be my age.. but its ya taemin can dance so well.. wow... everyting is possible in this world... haha...

her sweet memory was written @ 12:16 PM

nobody even trusts me... nobody even believes me.even family memember dun even believe. i dun think anyone will trust me also. Even the people who are very close to me also dun believe me.what to do? i feel so heart broken now to know that my family does not trust me. speechless.

her sweet memory was written @ 8:28 PM

here waiting. for your reply. dun know how i can reach you. dun know how can i get ur reply. i need your comfort. but to no solution i cant reach you. i miss you lots i. maybe i should just keep silent about everyting. i think i am thinking too much. you also got your things to do. today i didnt even send a sms out i try who will sms me.. no one did but samuel he send mi a pic to cheer me up. i want to thank a cousin we cheered me up, but it was for a while only. i am quite down. my heart is crying out and tears rolling down.
anyway who will notice this girl like me. like glen say i am quite a low profile and maybe its the truth.
today i thought a lot where are all my friends when i relly need someone to talk to. who would care for a girl like me. who will love this girl.thinking about work what if i can't go on? can i hold on?
has my family change?
have i changed? can i be the same person i use to be?
why do the guys i like never really like me? why love can be sweet and when things happen it turns out very ugly? why must there be third party in a relationship? why? why must everyone change? why they can't be their themself?? why??

her sweet memory was written @ 7:48 PM

i think all this long i only been thinking of urself.. did i spare other people a thought of how they feel?? i feel that now when i start a conversation with people all i do is start a quarrel with people. m patience is limited now.. am i changing?? i feel i am changing to another person, i must stay the way i use to be. but now people whom i love all beside me are changing... it hurts. i feel there is a hole in my heart which is not mended. i thought it was mended until recently the hole seems bigger this time.
biyanhe, for who i am hates who i have been now. i dislike my own attitide now. why cant i be understanding why can i be the patience girl i have been.. why am i throwing my temper around. i will change who i am. the hole will be mended soon also. i wish i can replay the times when i wasn't like that.

i just wish for the best to come. now it's like going to rain soon. it's nice when it's raining. when u cry in the rain no one will know. so nice to sleep also..

na saranghae biyanhe.

her sweet memory was written @ 1:52 PM

sometimes. things are mend to be like this.
the people who love the people who are close to you.
slowly people will just go away one by one and no one will be there except yourself.
now i am loving the people beside me..
thanks jia hui for calling me this few days to let me talk to him.
he helped me..
thanks to mel mel who cry for me because she misses me.
thanks kai xin for asking how i am...
thanks lots...

her sweet memory was written @ 11:10 PM

this is the rehersal with shinee and super junior..
haha they look veri cute still haha.... nice rite... tamin very cute... very talented too hehehe.... they all dance well men....

her sweet memory was written @ 8:58 PM

sitting here all alone thinking about lots of things now... many many... so complicated. but i have to put it aside.. so ya... saranghae...

her sweet memory was written @ 10:31 PM

one love by super junior which is a big korean group...

her sweet memory was written @ 10:24 PM

today is my two brothers birthday.. suprisely right? but both of them one is 10 today another is 16 today. sadly i can't go to get their presents because i am down with chicken pox and having to be in the room for like 2 wks. till 14 november. like i got jailed like tt. but i am not... haha... just wish that they will grow up to be very useful pple in furture... happy birthday brothers...=D

her sweet memory was written @ 1:20 PM

saranghae biyanhe. saranghae biyanhe.

saranghae edward.

eward na saranghae biyanhe.

saranghae biyanhe. saranghae biyanhe.

her sweet memory was written @ 11:59 AM

today i watched this korean movie do re mi fa so la ti do.. its all about music, friends and love. It was very touching.while watching i thought that girl will be with the guy she dun like but in the end she went back to her lover side. This realli makes me think about my friends and the person i realli like now. i realli dun know what to do. when i need my friends and the person i like now no one seems to be there. All i know i will keep on waiting till your back and i will hold back the tears till i see you. i will stay strong by myself i will keep on smiling even when i am down. i will keep going on and stay strong.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:26 PM