BEATRICE MAK ENCI
STUDYING AS A TRAINEE IN SOMEWHERE YOU DON'T KNOW
ENJOYING SINGLE-HOOD




sweet nana-sabrina
princessahli-cute niece
Eeling jie
Azimah
cuttie jinnie
pretty jessie
Sodiq
Randy kor
Ain
Jasmine
Melissa
Fatin
Cheryl jie
rebecca mei
edwin
fatin
fatin2
valrie
jiahui
cute cute rina

maybe in work and other places i should not say so much... like what aunty alice says in chinese when u see u learn don't say anything because u will say the wrong thing when u say the wrong thing it might hurt pple around u.. realli hurt them and not knowing that u said the wrong thing. what should i do now. i realli dun know who to turn to. AHHHHHHH.....where are u when i needed ur comfort.. maybe i ain't tt impt to u like ur mom said... who am i to u.. forget it.. ya take cares...

her sweet memory was written @ 11:05 PM

today was okies.. finishing polishing the crown which was okies... then i did another pour another model and mount it just in time... i hope that tml i will concentrate and finsh the second one by tml... then i was suppose to take mrt to hougang then take 72 home but i accompany ting ting take green line... cuz that ELGENE ask me to pei her...=O haha.. then called aunty malee if she gng jogging. She told me that daddy and isaac gng to jog so they waited for me... then daddy pack some things then went jogging..

Was okies.. then i brought beijing down for a walk she realli enjoyed it.. she like so excited.. went into the lift she wanted to go out quickly.. she used her paw to scratch the lift door... she is just so cute and greedy now.. aiyo... she onli come when u got food for her other then that she dun care you. anyways after the walk to help her wipe her paws and her face.. she veri guai.. i think i can bring her down next time...

now i have to try my very best although there are many things in my mind... just hope that everyone beside me can be happy can le.. for me when pple around me are happy i will too... hope that the days to come will be okies.. if not can't stand it le.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:33 PM

heys... i wanted to blog yd but... came home too late... now its like 6.50am in the morning... i am suppose to go off soon.. but still got lots of time... ytd after church went to roxy to eat... was super hungry... went with elisha, yaoyi from my cell the rst was i think andy and natty cell... haha... then after that i went with my daughter and son.. haha just kidding not la... okies i will not say there name but they will know... watched a movie... it was okies but got some scences which cant watch de lo... but okies la... had fun realli... thanks children(wahahaha) just kidding la i am not fit to be a mother(like too young for that) anyways got one guyy who is one yr younger called me mummy... but like its okies la... haha... i love 5.1 and me er zi!!!!!.... had funs... will blog more tonights...

her sweet memory was written @ 6:50 AM

i am like so addicted to this song... this song really mean a lot to me.. the lyrics is like realli meaningful... its realli nice.. haha.. today was AWESOME!!!! today i received two cards... one from blake and from rachael they were very nice of them to give me cards... anyways the pic on top is my cell 5.1.. they are realli like my family... it's like without them i tink my life would be realli dull and i think i will still be the unhappy me.. When i am with them i feel so happy even if i got lots of things on my mind.
maybe if i am not in this cell i think i would have just backslided. i just to thank all the pple in 5.1 for letting me be in ur cell and accepting such a person like me... i realli thank God for all the wonderful and amazing pple u are.. ya thats all for today... tata for now...

her sweet memory was written @ 11:28 PM

i dreamt of u coming back with ur other two cousins. i saw what both of them looks like. i was there u looked at me and just walked away and didnt care. I was hurt but at least i saw how u look like... hope ya doing fine.. now mel and u not beside me i feel that i cant breath luckily got kaixin and xueting is there for me. but i hope that ya alright.. take cares...

her sweet memory was written @ 7:55 PM

okies... ytd 24 of dec i had like half day and i kinda like dun know i had half day... was suppose to go out with "THE couple" but which i didnt and followed kai xin to orchard to get somthing for her boy friend. She got like somthing which i wanted to buy for someone but didnt buy cuz mel say dun waste money. It's like a ferris wheel with music which cost like i think $42. then in the end i bought cheryl gift which is a giffrate which is like veri unique and cute.

Then after that kaixin dad was also there he bought some things but which made him wait for like one over hour. Their service is a bit slow but what to do they are all busy can't blame them.. Then after that i uncle fetch me to outram which was very nice of him. Called up xueting because wanted to go vivo to get rina present and kaixin de. that time was like 5+. was suppose to meet rina at like 7.30 at city hall to go to the bbq together.

Then elgene was gng to bugis so he also gave me a ride lo... then save money... Went around to walk then bought grandma a cup which the box outside was kinda cute bought one for huikian also... then saw sabrina suprisely. it's like i look at her back i know is her le.. so funny... then after that went to city hall but i took the wrong side like what la... then stop at lavender and take to city hall.. luckily i reached there in time.. haha i run as fast as i can but in the end okies...

Then took bus 36 to church there, they had their bbq at lvl 6 which was amzing lo... reached there at 8+ till like nearly 10 i went to andy's house just to pass then present to cheryl then after awhile went off le. Then took train to hougang then realise my last bus was gone then took 87 to bedok inter then took the last 38 bus, which was super slow i think the bus driver very tired ba.. then from library take cab home its like $6+ like ex la... then reached home at 1.10am. It took me 2 hours to reach home so amazing right...

today 25 of dec.. merry christmas everyone... then went out with my family to eat tim sum in the morning then after eating when i walk at OG.. i bought a lip balm,billabong cap and a pants which cost mummy alot today and i feel guilty.. then bought ranin a belt for christmas present which is $42...

Then after that went to orchard to find the aillance pple haha.. just kidding... no la meet chikoon and glenn.. then along came more pple then after that went to eat at tanah merah then 89.7 eating house then after that they all came to my house to play monopoly. which was okies... at 12+ left with andy rina and joel then they left at 2am so today which is 26 dec i am on leave so i just blog whatever i did if not i lazy dun even want to be so detailed lo... haha... but i still lazy to put the pics... haha... soon i will... tata for now=)

her sweet memory was written @ 2:58 AM

this video has a very good meaning...

today almost finish the wax up then boss say that my wax work not gd.. so must do again... hai... like veri sian lo.. but kia seng very nice he teach me a bit... then it was a bit better i guess.. i thought it would be easier now but i guess it ain't. everything is always difficult in the place i am. Anyway after work i came home straight and went to jog with my small bro and maid. it was realli great. then my dad brought beijing down and then i went down also.. it was okies.. she was realli tired. then now using computer lo nothing else... thats all... haha... will upload pics soon todae lazy... nites... mel mel must take cares wor. and u take cares edward....

her sweet memory was written @ 9:12 PM

today went to shopping.. haha with ms habasah and sabariah.. got pics but veri lazy yo upload then todae was okies... i ate like 5 DONUTS and become NUTS... super funny la.... luckily ailain eat 1 for me... haha... thats all folks.... i will update pics soon....

her sweet memory was written @ 11:41 PM

this picture is taken at the lower pierce reservior park.. it's realli very beautiful.. i really love it. this few days is realli complicated but it's okies i guess.. the night walk was realli good.. I saw things which i have not seen before... all this is God's creation there are so many things we didnt know but it was realli realli good.. ya thats all for now.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:16 AM

today many things happen.. i was quite shocked that he said that.. i didnt expect things which i found out was unpleasant.. its like i feel that if u can.. dun work is the best...
many people whom trust u. say something not nice about u will u feel betrayed?? or someone owe u smth they dun return to u and when u ask he or she says what as in why do i owe u money. do u think u can trust her or him. or when the person is wrong another person help the person who is wrong?? i realli dun know what to do.. i wish ur here to give me a advice and be here for me...

here is a video which i came across.. which this guy compose de... its for u my beloved...

her sweet memory was written @ 9:59 PM

this is for u.. i realli miss ya... hmm today is okies.. it was okies lo.. finsih setting up so now need to do gum work thats all... must jia you wors...

her sweet memory was written @ 9:27 PM

today was okies.. then today when to do smth at ps then went to get the jeans which needs to be taken after two weeks. helped my maid take also then thats al lo.. okies i gtg le bb

her sweet memory was written @ 10:13 PM

today was like a horrible day for me. i was doing my work then somehow i didnt reply to my person a then i was doing okies a not with my work. person a somehow say me that i throw my temper on her but i didnt hear her.. she asked me not to hear the ear piece. i was sadden by some things someone told me abt a person i forgive and trust that person again. That a person told b person wad we said i was sadden. when c person heard what b person somehow showed us attitude today. i know that pple are gossiping abt my attitude or wad was happening and gng on todays i guess..
pple are like complaining abt my work today like person a and b. somehow i am trying realli trying but they keep like asking me to faster. i am realli fustrated with myself. i know a lot of pple are disappointed with me and won't treat me the same.
i try not to cry but tears just keep rolling down. this is like my 1st time crying so badly. i just cry and cry i dun know why. i try to be strong but turn out so weak. when i get back was suppose to stay at the chalet tml but my mom advise me not to stay there. its like i just realli need a break i realli dun know whom to trust or am i saying the right thing? i dun know. all i know that all pple are the same treat u very nicely infront of u but when ur not around they will gossip abt ur work or ur attitude and stuff.. i know some things i do was correct but i just dun care let the pple think their right but they are not. i just dun want to explain because in the end u will just keep quarreling or just get things worst. working life is realli realli tough all i know today is the last time i will cry i will try not to cry anymore and try my very best and believe that god will show me the way... thats all...

i wish u were here with me....

her sweet memory was written @ 11:47 PM

this is wad i had for my dinner...
today is my sway day as usual...
wasn't able to finish the work i was suppose to finish.. my 2 bite block.. someone complained that i can't finish m work. i feel like i can't even finish the work. i am like super behind if the work i am suppose to finsh. mp say that i have alreadi learned and suppose to know how to do it. but its like i dun know whats gotten into me that i can't finish the work. i am like a disappointment to everyone. i also found out 2 pple saying things abt me or even more or complaining about me.anyway this are a few things i can't even complete at all
1.pk thomas can't catch up
2.special tray from someone who asked me
3.bite block given by mp
when people say things or complain about me it does not feel gd at all. i wanted to cry but i just control. someone told me today u want to be a dental tech is veri difficult and must do ur work and can't keep on forgetting and expect me to do better. i just dun know why i can't wads happening.. i am thinking of giving up i realli dun want make pple talk behind my back and stressing over work which i can't do i realli dun know... i dun know. just hope i can hang on a little more longer. guess no one knows i feel today onli God knows ba.. i was expecting to ask me whether i am ok but i guess everyone is just tooo busy ba.. anyway who wanna care abt but just concentrate on their work right... i just dun want to hear pple bad things talking about it had enough... realli had enough.. if i can't i realli want to cry but just need to control now dun wanna show it. thats all ba.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:00 PM

today was okies. today on the bus so many indian workers lo... hmmm... then waited super long for the bus lo.. then reached home.. arnd 9+ my dad and i brought beijing down to walk.. wa she got lots of strengths lo... can pull me lo... she is like so excited... then thats all lo.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:17 PM

beijing very cute right.. then the flowers is papa bring back for me de.. cuz papa know i like flowers.. so nice right haha....

u see the way they dance its like wow... like so gd la...

her sweet memory was written @ 9:39 PM

her sweet memory was written @ 9:34 PM

this song is called one. the movie is abt the gal who was gng to die and he was there for her.. just wanting to say i miss ya and take cares.

her sweet memory was written @ 4:04 PM

today is pink day... haha... el xueting mel and i were wearing pink. haha
then right today dr seah came into the lab and stayed there the whole day mel like super super high lo... she so happy... haha LIKE SUPER SUPER HIGH... then i dun know why i got scratch lo.. haha.. then right today was okies i guess... i take train to hougang and then take 72 back home lo. thats all.. felt i was like so so lost... haha... yupp thats all for today... love pple besides me... mel now super high hor=)

her sweet memory was written @ 8:26 PM

today is ailian bday. haha.. bought a durian cake for her. then after work go with ms habasah to el mom shop to get her spec fix then have dinner and went to ps to get smth for my old school mate. then after that went home. its like leg pain lo... wake from ps to orchard. then also bought smth for lina mama but its a secret.... shhhhh... haha. she said she like the cranberry orange cookies. haha... so i bought for her lo since i was at marks and spencer. ya then after that go home lo. home sweet home...



hope ya okies... please cheer ups okies edward..

her sweet memory was written @ 11:00 PM

my heart will keep loving u.. no matter wad that is what its saying.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:29 PM

i watched this show and its not bad. haha.. cool show.. mel i hope ya okies ya..
hearts him lots.

her sweet memory was written @ 8:45 PM

today i bought a cd.. at first veri reluctant then think i promise to get his disc so here is it, abd he is cute=)...today saw all the couples haha... like i always with el and ting i feel like light bulb lo.. i dun like that feeling of being a light bulb. i wish that i was like all the people who are in my class... hai... btw today i do smth worng with the denture.. i feel so bad like a disaapointment.. i feel so sad inside... i hope that this love is real not a lie. if not i will brak down... i feel like i aint good enough for this job.. everyone else is better then me so so much. i feel so like sad... just put a happy smile. but all i know i must jia you even if i am tired. all i know god will be by my side.. and ed will too... my friends too... thanks for everything..






hope this ain't a lie

her sweet memory was written @ 9:06 PM