BEATRICE MAK ENCI
STUDYING AS A TRAINEE IN SOMEWHERE YOU DON'T KNOW
ENJOYING SINGLE-HOOD




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Eeling jie
Azimah
cuttie jinnie
pretty jessie
Sodiq
Randy kor
Ain
Jasmine
Melissa
Fatin
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rebecca mei
edwin
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valrie
jiahui
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There are things in my heart which i really can't say which is hidden. I only can turn to God. I really feel that no one is really here when i needed someone. Was really feeling all weird today. That all this feelings is hiding inside of me. I really dun know. BUt now i think i must jia you in my works ba. To see pple have many friends beside her is Good. Maybe i dun derserve all this what i am saying to have pple caring so much abt me. thats all.

her sweet memory was written @ 8:55 PM

i feel so screwed up now. What am i to do with all this things in my head. I feel like crying out now i realli do. WHY WHY WHY??? ALL THIS FEELINGS IN ME IS SO SCREWED U. i realli need the strength i realli do i realli do..What if i can't go on what if i... IDK IDK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

her sweet memory was written @ 9:53 PM

All this time.. It was all my own thinking.. All this is really tiring.. I am not gng to carry on. What's the use. All this time. Alone is my own thing... My aloneliness which i am used to it. Ytd i felt that i am like the third party with bear and even... I walked to the next bus stop which was okies. Wanted to walk home but was too tired.. Too many things in my head... Like bear said i should love myself more. But i keep thinking of other pple. I am so tired but tears can't roll down. When u said all that w, I felt numb to all this.. I was prepared for wad u have to say. I am not gng to run away and accept the fact that i am not the one who will able to even have the chance to love someone with all my heart.

Now i am gng to let go of all the past where too many pple i trusted who hurt me to be the past. like the pple i tried to love and told me off with many hurtful things. Even pple who say things will not effect me because i am numb to all this things alr.

So wad if i have any regrets... it dos not matter alr. I dun want to care wad the world has to think of me... I know where i stand and wad i am doing.. So please dun judge pple by its cover or the looks. So i am who i am i won't change because of all this.. So i would like aloneliness with my God in heaven thats the most happy thing i can do...

her sweet memory was written @ 12:32 PM

wish u were here.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:35 PM

Okies today many thoughts were like flowing into my head... Actually i was very tired... daddy say go jogging. Then i say okies but in the end my pa slp... I jog 3 rounds and it was tiring but i still kept on gng. Ytd after palatie i felt like vomitting blood. Is it a bad thing or good thing? haha wad a funny joke. That's all for todays.

her sweet memory was written @ 10:19 PM

Okies now i am like studying for the exams later. I took half day leave... I thought will be gng out with daddy but i think not ba.. Okies randomly.. How can a person talking to me and then the next day being so happy.. But at least i can tell the person how i am feeling.. I just wanna say peeko's owner.. I hope that your doing well u can emails me if u wanna if ur stress i dun mind u sharing.. For Wil. Rmb to take cares when ur there. Must jia you!!! FIGHTING.... Was thinking of learning korea also.. Maybe will try to learn from the internet first... Now realli on budget alr.. Gonna save money for smth.. With my BF... u know whos la.. Of cuz ting who is noona.. who gives me advice.. Mel the one who always makes me mad becoz she does smth wrong like BULLYING me... haha just kidding la.. Love to crap with this 2 pple LOVE THEM TO THE MAX!!!!... After exmas today i will say YAY!!!! i will jump as high i can mens.. haha...

beijing is just the love of my life.. i realli LOVE HER TO THE MAX<3.

BATCH 4 pple I LOVE UR TO THE MAX MAX MAX <3<3<3excluding some pple...(u get wad i mean)hahaXD

Oh ya i also love 5.1 TO THE MAX MAX MAX!!!!!<3<3<3

the most of all GOD with my WHOLE HEART!!!!<3<3<3<3<3

hahaha.... i think i am going insane...

tell u smth i woke up at 3AM TO STUDY siao right.. at least things are getting in.. haha...
okies i think i will blog ltr or smth... BYES...

LOVE U GUYS TO THE MAX!!!!<3<3<3<3<3

her sweet memory was written @ 4:21 AM

i dun know why i am feeling this way but i just feel like crying out loud.. BUt evrything is gng to be okies

her sweet memory was written @ 11:34 PM

Today went out for dinner. It was okies ba... now i am wondering why must they all leave? Just me here left without you guys.. u know how it feels? anyways exams are gonna finish so can relaxx a bit then study again for module 4... I am stress but must jia you... hahaha

her sweet memory was written @ 10:37 PM

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

This website was mel ask me to do de.. and i did so this is the result.. So ya... But i feel some which are not sure myself not sure.

her sweet memory was written @ 7:42 PM

okies today is my exams and i am freaking out there is buterfly in my stomach which i feel very nervous and scared that my long questions will be not good in it.. So i have to do well in mcq abd do it well.. I hope everything really goes well... Please God i really need u to give me strength to go through this exam.. Thats all.. wish it is not that difficult... Will explain more when i am back... I must jia you!!!!!

her sweet memory was written @ 5:04 AM

OKies i am having EXAMS on monday wednesday and friday... SUPER STRESSED can... hope that all goes well i am feeling butterfly in my stomach now... so scared.... But i know i do my best and God will do the rest.. No matter wad results i still will love him and praise him with my whole heart... CHERYL BDAY TML just wanna say happy bday to you...God bless u and i love ya....

(hope everything goes right)

her sweet memory was written @ 9:30 PM

Okies thursday actually wanted to study but wad uncle's bday and i had to go down which i wanted to do.
Called grandma at like 9+ she asked me to go down strait away and when i wanted to pack my stuff grandma said it's okies and said 1+ reach cans.
So i left later went to buy the cake from the cake shop PD... shortform.. hmmm thens
went to get a card for him...
Which i like spent like many stops to write the card... which was okies...
WEnt to Crystal Jade to eat with jane and samuel.. Was Jane's treat not bad ehs... haha
Then went to uncle hse celebrate.. he kept thanking me.. In my heart uncle no matter how difficult it is i will be supporting you...

WHen gng home i took the train all the way to Joo Hoon then back to tampines. Then i sat in the middle this 2 workers always falling towards me okies..
Studied a bit which was okies.. by the time reaach home it was like dun know wad times le...
But i am happy... God please bless uncle and grandma... thank you Lord...

her sweet memory was written @ 10:22 AM

heys.... u see that hair style wa cool man... maybe cutting this hair style.. haha dun know yets... (for u to know and for u to find out)


see she makes me smile... she is just so guai... what am i gng to do when she is not arnd.. Love her to the max...

her sweet memory was written @ 10:12 AM

Today is realli dishearterning. Why must this all turn this way? Is this all a fairy tale? I think that i am not good enough for any one. All i want is to give my heart and soul but this is not mend to be.

All this while i am trying to be strong but i just pretended to strong. I dun feel good inside. I...

her sweet memory was written @ 9:57 PM

heys.. Todays was great.. Now i think i am deciding on wad i should do. I guess so... needs to jia you men...=)

her sweet memory was written @ 10:43 PM

Now i feel a emptiness in which i hope will fade away.. and the i hope ya alrite.. and that i have to follow the path he wants me to take.. That i can't do the things my own way.. so ya...

her sweet memory was written @ 10:26 PM

Sorry for ignoring the fact that i am suppose to be the servant and serve you Lord. That everything cut which i thought that was ok but u didnt and think that it realli matter a lot.. The fact is i really need u in my life. I realli need to buck up.. I can't just be who i am now but i realli need to change. Like daddy say that i need to committed to him then the fire in me will not be fading off.. I understand now, That i was running away from everyting. Now is the time that i need to face everything. I realli do. I am sorry Lord... I am so so sorry. I realli need u to strengthed me in my spirit and in this world i realli need u... i realli do... In everything please guide me Lord please.. please..

her sweet memory was written @ 3:58 PM

Today beijing got smth wrong idk why... i feel so restless i dun know wad to do to help her.. ARH!!!!!!

her sweet memory was written @ 8:57 PM

today is like wads.. realli have been realli bad week and gng be a very bad month for me... i realli dun know wad to do..... Hmmm i think that all this is realli getting from bad to worst after i joined this course.... I realli dun know le... hai... confirm dies le.. hai.....

her sweet memory was written @ 9:30 PM

todays after work... I went to get tickets at gv tampines mall.. its okies i guess.. trevor and blake were late. So like waited for a while i guess.. But its okies. hmmms.. Hav been thinking that i shld let go and concentrate on wad i shld do nows.. So ya. that's all.

her sweet memory was written @ 11:35 PM

Today was Great.. I really love taking care of the kids at the sunday school... I feel like i wanna help out every sunday.. I really love the small little children.. They are super CUTE!!!!... LOVE them although they cry or wad they still adorable... U know there this kid isaac which is super cute but at the same time naughty and keeps on crying.. If u wanna the kids to hug u... You must go to them and hug them... haha.. yupps. thats like the most interesting part of today.. The rest of the days were sweets... its alright.. I am so ready to take care of the small kids... YAY.... hahahs..

her sweet memory was written @ 10:35 PM