actually was suppose to blog abt wad happened today abt ting bday surprise and all but i just dun feel like it.. dun know i stoning at the living room and listening to my mp3... i love u by rain..
Was kinda sad so went to walk downstairs with zac and my besties black mom.. bought ice cream bought bro the very ex ice cream.. like 1.80... mind was like 60 cents onli.. felt much better and then nw blogging and gonna stone again...
wont be using the com much todays anw... typing in the dark somemore...
i asked u and u didnt know wads i was saying.. realli regretted asking u... was called a sotong,auntie and a zhu... realli feeling dwn todays.. i...
her sweet memory was written @9:54 PM
Monday, June 29, 2009
okies today is not bads cant believe i was stuck on one thing the whole day... thought i can do more... anw i was happy to see u guys men... miss u guys to the max...=) Like didnt see them for a year or more.. it felt great to be the pple who is the same age as u... just so gd.. crapping all the way.. although not all turned up but at least i get to see the most of them..realli hearts them alot although we are not close at all.. realli love them loads loads.. was fun and all although its like just a few hours at least get to spent time with them... anw...will upload the pics whn i get them=)
Just seeing u make me think abt the past wad has happen and stuff.. just cant...
Anyways.. was not bad.. was kinda furious abt the cutback,keep breaking.. thens so sians.. talked to Lina mama daughter Liyana.. she is funny lo... reply my msg.. instead of Lina mama lo.. =( Menotr didnt come but i didnt slack okies i was soing my work all the long.. Was singing due to my sleepness cuz was tired.. just hope Lina mama and Ks didnt mind but i dun think they will cuz bunsen burner was very loud...
i realli tried to control myself but i just couldnt.. I realli didnt.. must control... will try toos...
to see you was my last wish when i left...
her sweet memory was written @10:19 PM
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Okies todays is all abt sharing abt the word to pple.. Then had class which was gd cuz i learn quite alot from that.. then after that went to meet sab then go to the bbq...
Met up with her and sab... then bishun,peng heng,elden and nick.. went there saw so many of my click... realli miss them loads.. to the max..
But the guys said u knw those dirty stuff and all the vurlgar language... u know i felt quite not right ya know.. Like they say those things... quite wrong actually....
wanted stay there somemore but thens u know got sch ltr so ya.. kinda u know... hmms.. u knw whn i see u i feel that there is smth there... still in me u knw.. i thought it has fade away but it seems that it has not.
I know God i need u to be my strength i want u to help me Lord i realli need u to guard this heart if mind.. I want to do wad i can do when i am still her Lord.. i realli need u... i dun wan to be the same as i was last time.. I need u Lord.. i realli do...
guard this heart of mine... i dun wanna to be wad i am in the past.. i dun wanna regret wad i am doing or whom i am loving Lord.. i need u so badly.... i know that i need friends but no one seem to go close to me.. they seem like they stay away from me... i...
her sweet memory was written @11:44 PM
This is the korean version of we are the reason...
Today service was realli good..It realli make me reflect on alot of things which like i am now and stuff... Realli need alot of things to do ba.. Ya thats it..
tml will be meeting u guys realli miss u guys looking forward to it=)
her sweet memory was written @12:19 AM
Friday, June 26, 2009
OKies this is isaac's hand nw.. He needs like 4-6 weeks to recover... Poor him.. Just wish that the person is me that he will not hurt so much.. see him like that how?? Anyways.. just that tooo many things happening.. u know wad shld i do?? feel like i neeed to do smth but i am doing it in the wrong way... Just hope that this will end.. I love this work i am doing but then... How??.. All this... I realli dun know... This is the first hana i first had... Its very nice though... Ya.. just had a quite a okies days.. Only had 4 hrs of slp ya know... quite tired lo... Too think abt it gonna grad end of nxt yr and then work soon le... So ya... Gotta learn fast and do my things first...
Just wish isaac will get better faster and that Mel u feel better that i will be here okies no matter wad... Just wondering where are u guys whn i...
her sweet memory was written @10:40 PM
Okies today was as usual.. Left the house late and thens.. Almost late today.. Hmmms... then after went to watch transformer was not bads... very funny we were waiting for el to see the song by the time mel and i wanted to go toilet le.. Then ting tell us got toilet thens it was full.. Then later on ewent to basement then got toilet.. So funny mel..
Then ting and el took train back to ndc to get el car.. mel,qiang and sab took the bus infront of esplanade.. Me to took 10 instead of train... Was strolling from the esplanade to the bus stop near the merlion that side though..Saw alot of families... U knw it has been a long time sinc emy whole family is this happy... Really miss those times when u knw the happiest times i had.. At that moment i didnt feel like gng home i felt like staying there to think and see the stars...Just feel mix feelings and stuff.. so ya....
Though about lots of stuff... U knw isaac hand is like this i cried when i see him like this last night.. It hurts to see him cry... I so wished that person who's finger is swollen which is me.. I see him suffer my heart brokei into billion pieces... To make him feel better i bought him a dino 3D puzzle and some sweets.. Other then that i feel so helpless that i can't help him at all.. Thats all i can do... Just finshed some work which was asked for a earlier date.. It's complete... Thats all i guess for todays... Ciao
It's just hurts so so much... To see and to feel that the pple close to me....
her sweet memory was written @12:22 AM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Okies todays just started work then i realise my hand got blood.. its bleeding was kinda puzzled how i cut my finger.. Anw i feel so so.. I realli dun know how to explain.. just that news realli spread very fst i guess.. maybe nows i shld just mind my own business.. Need to save money... cant anyhow spend le.. Gt scolding by pa.. He saw wad i was doing and ask me abt details and stuff.. He say i dun knw how to manage my money properly.. I feel so hurt.. Actually he is right i ALWAYS ANYHOW SPEND MY MONEY... I DUN KNOW HOW TO MANNAGE MY TIME PROPERLY.. I realli... i am... miss the chance again when will it be will i lose it again?today u came but i lose a chance..
her sweet memory was written @9:21 PM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Okies todays was not bads... Was kinda angry cuz my first work i did was a destroyed by my own making... Just hope that i am able to like do the second one properly...After wrk went to east coast park to have dinner with some of the zone five pple.. Was not bads but didnt sit together... gals where gals guys where guys... But then okies la... Waited at the bus stop with rina... Told her some things... And then ya.. Hope to meet her up soon... Realli got lots to say and kinda miss the times when we used to talk... so ya... Gonna have the 4th round of durian on friday like WOW... Thursday gonna watch transformer with the NDC FRREAKKS.. haha looking forward i guess.. okies i got nth to say alr... ciao...
Gotta say strong and hang in there..
her sweet memory was written @10:49 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
I realise one thing also that one person made a comment that i have to work hard and then i can strive.. Because somebody made a mistake and does not admit his or her mistake that that person was emotional through out.. I feel like pressure that wad if i am like this sometimes... then how? U know that pple keep pestering to having a bf... Like stress... hmmm like melissa tan also keep pushing me to guys.. My maid... my parents.. ITS LIKE WAD!!!but i dun want.... my own work also cant cope then how can i have a bf if i cant realli take care of myself.. hmmms ya thats it.. i must try to concentrate and i must learn to trust myself in wad sutuatiion i am in.. That i must do all this myself and try to stand on my own.. Cuz now i know that u yurself know where ur standing... anyways writing in my blog also no one will see so forget it...ahahaha
ciao...
her sweet memory was written @11:12 PM
Okies today nt bads.. Had free durian at work and at back home durian for dinner.. Dad bought somemore durian i think i am gonna to be very heaty alr.. haha so funny.. so much durian... anw bought the things which i needed to get alr so i am so ready to do it... Know i realise that so many things has come clearer to me.. That i didnt realise in the past ya know... Talked to nick ytd and realise things u know.. abt some stuff was kinda shocked... i realli didnt y that person is so scared abt me and stuff. i wish that the person was not so scared and realli appreciate me.. Just that u know i feel that it hurts me that u change so much now that u are not the person i think i knew.. Just hope that everything will go smoothly for u ba.. thats all...
Just hope u had the courage to tell me that nth will stand in our way at that point of time.that i will accept wad u are and u will too... just hope....
her sweet memory was written @8:43 PM
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Nowdays i dun feel like saying anymore i dun feel like authering a word or saying anything. Maybe aint saying anything would be great. That everything will ok if i dun say anything.. That everything will be fine everything would not happen..
Staying quiet and not saying anything is the best solution
her sweet memory was written @11:49 PM
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Okies after the durian session with the NDC FREAKS OR THE WEIRDO FRIENDS I HAVE.. Dad fetched me home... Daddy was like took time to open the durian while i like bath... Anways TEST is like over...slept at 11pm and woke up at 3.30am to study.. so didnt have mush slp either... Didnt feel happy dun know whys... its like i think maybe i am tired or maybe something else....
When they went back its like they where playing board games and Wii and some like playing with the guitar and singing praises...
Actually....was like emoing or maybe i was tired.. Sms randy to see wad he was doing... its like seems like didnt talk to him for a while (at least he rmbs me have been my good buddy or bro for like 3 yrs appreciate him asking me how am doing and not forgetting this girl name beatrice since sec 2 till nw)..
He called me and we actually talked abt things which i was not suppose to think abt it.. Was thinking too much.. i kinda cried when telling him wad happen and stuff.. It just breaks my heart.. (I....)alot things really went through my mind when i was talking to him...ended the call like after 20 mins or so..
Went in and then was sitting at the back... talked to jonathan he showed me some cool tricks with cards.. super cool(although its learn from the net)(OOPS)...
Then played some grp games was not bads though... was funny...
After that nat and jon left... then we watch movie.. 3 movies 1)the guardian 2)Lilo and stitch 2 3)caroline
I watched all but for the caroline i could not talk it anymore too tired so halfway i sleep le... woke up at like 8am like that left the room thens had breakfast and went home..and i am here blogging...so ya. i am not gng to slp although i slept onli 2 hrs plus cuz i think i will waste this day of mine... so gonna to find smth to do.. yaya.. (will update the pics soon ya) ANYWAYS LOVE U 5.1<3 love this pple to the MAX!!!!!!!
her sweet memory was written @10:03 AM
Friday, June 19, 2009
Okies erms i went to have durian with my click... NDC FREAKS<3 love them loads... nw waiting for my dad to bath finish to go to church.. thens will be like staying overnight at church so ya its cool... =)
yupp yuppp so ya...
LOVE U NDC FREAKS<3 love ya=)
her sweet memory was written @8:55 PM
heys nw i am awake to study i feel tired mens.. realli.. but then at least some of the things went into my head at least i was able to memorise something though.. still need to read somemore.. Jia you... seems like mel have not wake up but then i need to go on.. =) jia you mens... neeed a pass mens... its the long questions that make me fail.... hmmmm hope i can do it!!!!!!
her sweet memory was written @3:42 AM
Thursday, June 18, 2009
OKies i should not be blogging.. tml will be the test like STRESSES cans.. anw gonna wake up early to study mens... Metting mel at like 6.30am at boon keng.. need to leave the hse at like 5.50am like that...okies i hope i can do it.. byes... update soons..
miss beijing loads...miss her being around...
her sweet memory was written @9:04 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Hmms this is the interview... haha i think onew teeth is a crown.. haha... or root canal... okies this video is not bad... =) okies i have to like study hard mens... even i think i cant i must try lo... i know now i can trust myself...ya lo... haha... hmmms okies back to studies byes...
her sweet memory was written @8:32 PM
I think i am gonna give up cant study anymore le la... seriously cant go in le... somebody says i am a BIMBO.... onli know i act pretty bit no brains=( super sad that person called me that... i dun mind stupid but bimbo... =( wanna cry le la... BIMBO is like somebody with NO BRAINS... i feel stupid realli cant do anything properly... ARHS!!!!!... dun know wads with me....
her sweet memory was written @2:17 PM
okies tis is like shinee new style which i am not used to but then they still look great... love it esp taemin!!!!!
her sweet memory was written @6:16 AM
Okies i like got another one day and then tml and the friday morning to study which always think i wanna give up... i just dun know why my brain feels so dead and just cant go in... This time i realli tink that will i do it??? i realli dun know...
feel like giving up but i just cant... feel so vex....
her sweet memory was written @6:00 AM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
MEL this video is for u.. u confrim jealous de.. haha=)
her sweet memory was written @6:59 PM
This is shinee NEW SONG didnt know that till today... HAHA... LOVE their new looks... ESP TAEMIN he looks so man now.. so cute and handsome.. hahaha=)
Realise smth their hair all look like boys over flower de GOO JYUN PYO hairstyle so funny but they all look so different.. =)and their body shape is like wow... haha
Maybe the type of guy i want is like taemin or key..=)
OKies for todays work.. Was totally lazy... seriously.. time was like very fast though.. ya.. I need to jia you cant drool over korean guys alr(just kidding) hahaha... ciao...
her sweet memory was written @6:36 PM
Monday, June 15, 2009
Okies todays i was kinda lazy... But then did study awhile.. Was discussing abt wad mel and ting thinks abt wad christians is abt.. felt quite good abt telling them i feel and my thoughts.. Went to vivo with mel to order her dog food for her dogs... Hmmm thn saw this lady which has her difficuilty in walking because of her hip displacement.. Wanted to pray for her and didnt have the courage to kinda regretted that i didnt pray for her.. then ya thats it ba.. gonna study le...
Realli regretted it...
her sweet memory was written @8:47 PM
Saturday, June 13, 2009
OKies studied and like nth went in.. But i think i must jia you le... At mac till 7+ then went to harvey norman with parents to see television... After that went to eat DURIAN.. so yummy but now throat dry.. ya tats all i guess... =)
in my heart u know i still love u...
her sweet memory was written @11:24 PM
IN MY HEART I STILL LOVE YOU for all u have done i really appreciate it... do take cares of urself okies.. U MUST KEEP GNG ON NO MATTER HOW TOUGH IT IS.. WE WILL DO THIS TOGETHER OKIES... U WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART...
BATMAN AND ROBIN i will have u in my heart no one will replace u guys...
her sweet memory was written @8:59 AM
Friday, June 12, 2009
Okies went to IT fair ytd... whn walking the city link i felt i cant breath.. for a ten sec i could not breath at all.. It was realli scary u know.. practical is over... i think i didnt realli do tt well for my work.. i feel that la.. am i able to go on??.... this blog is seriously DEAD DEAD... hmmms... anyways hope i can do it ba...
her sweet memory was written @12:43 PM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Okies i am terribly feeling very sick i dun know whys.. Was having headache today and was feeling cold and then hot after that... Hey hope u 2 are feeling better also okies... So funny we got sick at the same time... hope u guys feeling better okies.. ya dun anyhow eat also la then u got food poisioning.. must take cares okies.. wish i could something but i cant.. hmmms... practical test was okiess.. just hope it will be okies for tml... Maybe i shld not go online that often cuz i think that no one talks to me also and maybe not blog that much also.. So ya.. Hope i can do it.. seriously...JIa you Batch 4 we all can do it de=)
her sweet memory was written @8:31 PM
Thursday, June 4, 2009
I have figured that i realli am not doing wad i am suppose to do... So i must stay focuse realli.. I realli need strength.. So i hope that all will be fine.. (i am just so lazy) what to do ARGH!!!!
her sweet memory was written @10:32 PM
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Okies today after sch went to city hall to find somethings with el that he wanted... Then met the rest at bugis control station.. Met jonathan first then ranon then kaying then juli...
Then went to the back of bugis wen to find the steamboat i thought i know the place but dun have.. Then juli and ranon check out the price for the steamboat.. After eating went to bugis take NEOPRINT... 9 pple okies thats like so many pple la.. so cool but cant move very fast. as in change places.
After that cheryl,blake,jonathan,ranon and kaying we went to esplanade... SO NICE can... then at arn 11.30 left the place to the bus stop board 10 at 12.04am like this on the way home...
Reached home at 1 am like that lo.. Was okies i guess.. So now i am blogging and now studying abit...
OKies for the reason that i was so quiet because i was thinking abt things alot.. Gng through my mind. Just too much till i wanted to cry and my eyes begain to hurt so much so much.i dun knw why...
As i see this video i could feel God's presence i just need him so badly to guide this heart this soul of mine.. I am so mix up.. I feel so pain inside me i cant describe wad i am feeling i just need God's advice so badly. I feel tat i cant i cant go on anymore i..
God i dun want to be the person i use to be Lord. I realli dun want to be that person.. God i need u i need u...I realli dun know who to turn to anymore God.. God...
her sweet memory was written @1:29 AM
Monday, June 1, 2009
Oies i am gng to watch this with my family members ltr at 9.15pm... With mummy daddy and isaac.. HAHAHAHA HAPPENING RIGHT.....Gng off soon le... Today had 4 hrs of lecture straight from 8.30am till 12.30pm... Long right suprising that i didnt doze off onli at the later part....Tml still got 3 hours of lecture straight la... ARGH... Hope thati can stay awake mens..... HAHAHA
Tml will be cell dinner super looking forward to it mens.... HAHA but i dun feel like eating hows... hahaha thks for replying to my msg guys... Hope u didnt feel irritated okeis...
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